1 Month To Sam’s Demise

Disclaimer : Sam’s Fateah video link is embedded. If you don’t understand Arabic, kindly listen after 2 min 7 seconds, as it’s in Hindi / Urdu. If video stucks, open it via desktop and download it. Sorry for the inconvenience.

The truth is, just because I let you go, does not mean, I wanted too ..

We all change, but nothing will ever change us like losing someone we care about and looking into their eyes for the very last time.

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As I pen down this post, I am reminded of the two promises I made to you on 4th Apr 2023.

  1. Rest assured, I am wholeheartedly committed to honouring the promise I made to you. I will spare no effort in conveying your heartfelt apology to everyone you cherished deeply.
  2. I will go to LAST Conference 2023 and speak on the same platform where we once stood together five years ago.

Bhai, as I traverse this journey of life, I’ve embraced a profound truth – there are moments when it’s worth bearing the burden of others’ mistakes rather than immersing ourselves in the intricate details, sparing ourselves unnecessary pain. Along the way, I’ve learned that misplaced, unclear pranks can inadvertently sow the seeds of dreadful misunderstandings, leaving scars on the bonds we hold dear.

Reflecting on your experiences, I can’t help but wish that you had taken the opportunity to clarify those misunderstandings. Communication, bhai, is a powerful tool to mend the cracks in our relationships and foster a deeper understanding between us.

Time and tide wait for none. It has been a month since you left us, Sam, and life feels incomplete without you. You are constantly in my thoughts, and I hope you are now happy and free from pain. Your presence was cherished during your life and continues to be even after you left us.

In the past month, I’ve encountered people who share kind words about you, revealing the divine essence you carried. The events of 26th July 2022 have profoundly changed our family, and expressing my feelings about you seems impossible.

Athar uncle and his family traveled from a considerable distance to pay their last respects at your and Dad’s grave.

To keep the article concise, I am sharing a video of Samar’s Fateah with Athar uncle. For those who couldn’t attend the funeral, this allows them to recite Surah e Fateah from afar and virtually visit his grave.

Sam's Grave

Baba and Samar Fateah – Athar Uncle

Hi All,

As per previous request, I had already uploaded the final resting place of Ali and Baba. I am so thankful to Athar uncle and family who travelled from Srinagar to pay their last rights to Sam in May.

Athar uncle said beautiful prayers for my departed brother soul. I will always be in-debeted uncle. All of you have stood like a family.

For Hindi and Urdu, please forward the video up-to 2 minutes 10 seconds to be part of Samar’s Fateah and Athar uncle Dua for him. For sure, we belong to Allah and we all will return back to him.

Samar’s Grave

Allah, please grant my brother all the blessings and peace in the other world. Forgive his sins and keep him close to you. We all belong to Allah and we surely will return to him.

Bhai, I wish you could hug me and keep hugging me until my soul melts into tears.

It’s getting too heavy inside …

The two best men of my life are buried just together and side by side

Please find the link to Sam’s last post https://www.insprove.com/dreams-2023/

During this profoundly overwhelming time for our family, I am sincerely grateful for your prayers and unwavering support.

Please recite Surah – e – Fateah for Syed Ali Samar Zaidi S/O Syed Ali Haider Zaidi

The closer I got to people, the more alone I felt. and their faces would say more about me than I could of myself. I left pieces of me in places that would fill me, and in the end, I lost myself in everything I loved.

Thank you,

Bee

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May 5, 2023

Bee

Beenish is an experienced Product Manager, Scrum master, and a Savvy technologist based in Australia. "Good Moral Character, Good Sense, Good Will".

Dreamer | Ambidextrous | Autodidact | Bibliophile | Sapiosexual | Curious

Comments

  1. Chiara Sanders

    Hi Bee.
    This is an extremely sad post. My name is Chiara Sanders and I am from Milan, Italy. My younger sister Alyce was searching few things and showed me this post. I am a teacher by profession and I teach at , British School of Milan – Sir James Henderson. I am so sorry for your loss. I felt very disturbed reading this post and actually wanted to give you a hug. I can relate as I just lost my partner last year November. Do you mind telling, who has passed away and how? Please take care. lots of virtual hugs for you.

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    • Bee
      Bee

      Thankyou so much chiara. Your comment brought a smile on my face. First of all please accept my condolences on your partner loss and may god provide your family all the strength needed to bear this grave tragedy.

      This post is for my older brother Samar. He left for the heavenly abode this 6th of April. He was 35. He passed away due to cancer. I am very sorry this post made you sad. I just write very rarely on this blog as it’s a painful reminder as we had set it up together.

      This is exciting to know you are from Milan and a teacher. Its an extremely noble profession. I am Bee and i reside in Brisbane Australia. Thanks chiara for your support. Much love.

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      • Chiara Sanders

        Oh dear, it’s very sad. lots of hugs coming your way. it’s a very young death. My partner was same age. It’s beautiful how connected you are to your brother. We have a big family of 5 sisters and share an extremely close bond with each other. You look like same age as my younger sister Selina. Was your brother married?
        you should not stop writing on your blog. Actually write more often as you said it’s something you and your brother built together. I saw his last post, very touching. He must be a very special man. My sister Alyce is an exceptionally gifted painter. If you will like to make something for your brother memory, do let me know. lots of hugs are your way. stay strong sweetheart.

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        • Bee
          Bee

          Thank you Chiara. Your concern has brought a huge smile on my face during this turmoil. It’s very kind of you. When you are going through a really tough situation, such gestures mean a world. I am very thankful.
          No my brother was not married. I am very sorry for your partner loss. I am very happy to hear about your family closeness. May you all remain the same.
          My brother was a very special and rare person. There are so many great memories to cherish. I will try and take your advice and write more often, time permitting.
          I am very glad to know your sister is a talented painter. Absolutely, i will love to get something created. Actually, i am speaking in a conference on 29th September 2023. I and my brother shared the stage in same conference 5 years back. So on hearing his demise, the conference body reached out to me to speak about it, here is a link to my talk : Conference Talk 2023
          May be i will get something created for this talk. I will share my brother and my conference talk together. May be a moment from that talk. :-), again many thanks for your concern.

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          • Chiara Sanders

            oh dear, hugs for you. don’t mention it. your post melted my heart. The part where you wrote if someone can hug you so that your soul can melt into tears. I am happy we got connected. Bee, do you have any other medium to talk?
            I am very sure, your brother is a special man whose sister loves him a lot. Sure thing, do share link of your and your brother talk, and tell me what you want to get created. I will ask Alyce to create it for you.
            Your conference abstract is so well written. I am sure that your brother must be feeling proud that you are speaking for him. It is very rare sweetheart. Do you think, I can attend your conference talk virtually? will be so great to hear you. I will write again. if you have some other medium, let me know. lots of love, Chiara

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  2. Bee
    Bee

    Thanks Chiara. Sorry for the late reply. I don’t usually check this site often.. Absolutely i can share my email or number. Social media wise mostly twitter i use. I have a book club. Absolutely you can join virtually its in September though. If you want to share your email , i can text you details. My brother was definitely a very special person. Thats the least i can do.

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